Post by Vanita Thompson on Jun 8, 2019 21:31:45 GMT -6
It burns into your heart, the darkness that you fear.
You were never free, and you never realized.
And love is a word you've never heard.
Your heart ain't cold 'cause it burns,
A desire to leave the mire.
I had been at the gym for several hours by this point. The owners knew I was upset, so the only other person they let in was my cousin, King. There was so much on my mind before tomorrow's match that I just needed it off my chest. King knew I was in pain, cause I was kicking the bag extra hard. He stopped me about twenty minutes in, but I pushed him away.
"Vain..."
"The bag King."
He got back to the bag, and my thoughts were just racing. The pain was leaving and I didn't have ot touch a drop of booze. Heh, baby steps there. At that moment, things and people were flashing in front of me. The first....Birdie.
That girl did not need to be in that parking lot...but she was...and she paid for it with her life. That one is going to kick me in the gut cause I was not there to protect her, she was only twenty. She had her whole life ahead of her. They were looking for me...she was looking for me. Morgan...I swear that bitch is going to get severely hurt. I just wanted happiness...Birdie was like a sister...and King stopped again as the tears just flowed.
"Vain, stop. Please."
I had been at the gym for several hours by this point. The owners knew I was upset, so the only other person they let in was my cousin, King. There was so much on my mind before tomorrow's match that I just needed it off my chest. King knew I was in pain, cause I was kicking the bag extra hard. He stopped me about twenty minutes in, but I pushed him away.
"Vain..."
"The bag King."
He got back to the bag, and my thoughts were just racing. The pain was leaving and I didn't have ot touch a drop of booze. Heh, baby steps there. At that moment, things and people were flashing in front of me. The first....Birdie.
That girl did not need to be in that parking lot...but she was...and she paid for it with her life. That one is going to kick me in the gut cause I was not there to protect her, she was only twenty. She had her whole life ahead of her. They were looking for me...she was looking for me. Morgan...I swear that bitch is going to get severely hurt. I just wanted happiness...Birdie was like a sister...and King stopped again as the tears just flowed.
"Vain, stop. Please."
Take your breath 'til nothing's left.
Scars of life upon your chest.
And I know wherever it goes
I couldn't though, so I went to a punching bag. I just had to get this anger out. Timothy...my mentor. Put in a hospital. Battered, beaten. I know he is a wrestler, dude taught me a lot. Trust and loyalty were the biggest things. What was done...was horrible. All I could think about was when that switch would flip with me. How far I was willing to go to protect King, The Hawks, my new friends...
"Vain...you're losing your heart. The gentle one."
He was trying to wake me up, I know he was. I know he was trying to keep me happy. King. His real name is Damon DeMarcus Alexander, but everyone in The Hawks as well as his only family knew him by King. When my parents died, he took me in...he saved me then. He is trying to now...and I cracked. I stopped, frozen at the bag and dropped to my knees.
I sobbed so much in those four minutes on the ground.
I couldn't though, so I went to a punching bag. I just had to get this anger out. Timothy...my mentor. Put in a hospital. Battered, beaten. I know he is a wrestler, dude taught me a lot. Trust and loyalty were the biggest things. What was done...was horrible. All I could think about was when that switch would flip with me. How far I was willing to go to protect King, The Hawks, my new friends...
"Vain...you're losing your heart. The gentle one."
He was trying to wake me up, I know he was. I know he was trying to keep me happy. King. His real name is Damon DeMarcus Alexander, but everyone in The Hawks as well as his only family knew him by King. When my parents died, he took me in...he saved me then. He is trying to now...and I cracked. I stopped, frozen at the bag and dropped to my knees.
I sobbed so much in those four minutes on the ground.
And we run, with a lonely heart
And we run, for this killing love
And we run, 'till the heavens above
Yeah we run, running in the dark
Yeah we run, running in the dark
And we run, 'till we fall apart
And we run, 'till the heavens above
My phone soon went off. I forgot to turn it completely off but truth told? I didn't want it turned off because of one person. A lot of people spoke up, but then there it was.
A picture and a message.
He was coming out to see me wrestle.
David Gowolski, Rampage star and all around awesome guy. Pretty handsome too. I sent him a message back and we got to talking for a few moments, giving me time to calm myself down. Octane, nice nickname. Kyle knows him and the two of us have become good friends since my match in FSW. It clicked in my head then.
"The old friends may be gone, but the new ones come in at the right moment."
King looked down and chuckled.
"Your new crush Vain?"
"Yeah...more than crush. I'm really liking him. A lot."
He chuckled again.
"I think he likes you too Vanity."
Vanity. There is a nickname he hasn't used in a long time. I got up and dried my eyes on the arm sleeve of my shirt. I grabbed my bag and motioned for King to come on, thanking the owners of the gym in the process. My breathing was done, my frustrations gone.
I have a title to win.
I will get it.
For Tim. For David.
For Birdie.
My phone soon went off. I forgot to turn it completely off but truth told? I didn't want it turned off because of one person. A lot of people spoke up, but then there it was.
A picture and a message.
He was coming out to see me wrestle.
David Gowolski, Rampage star and all around awesome guy. Pretty handsome too. I sent him a message back and we got to talking for a few moments, giving me time to calm myself down. Octane, nice nickname. Kyle knows him and the two of us have become good friends since my match in FSW. It clicked in my head then.
"The old friends may be gone, but the new ones come in at the right moment."
King looked down and chuckled.
"Your new crush Vain?"
"Yeah...more than crush. I'm really liking him. A lot."
He chuckled again.
"I think he likes you too Vanity."
Vanity. There is a nickname he hasn't used in a long time. I got up and dried my eyes on the arm sleeve of my shirt. I grabbed my bag and motioned for King to come on, thanking the owners of the gym in the process. My breathing was done, my frustrations gone.
I have a title to win.
I will get it.
For Tim. For David.
For Birdie.