Post by Ruthless Aggression on Mar 15, 2016 13:15:35 GMT -6
 | if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you Tagged:Everyone |
Right now there have been many things on my mind.
My husband.
My son.
Myself
Those are the three top things that have my life become circle around. The things that have been clouding my mind and heart but there also have been many other things.
My career here in EWC. As I sit here I feel there are some more things I need to do but I feel people around here forgot about me? I feel people around here don't even see me as a threat anymore. That what has made me mad.
I have been invisible.....
I have become worthless....
No one needs me...
No one wants me....
No one care about me... anymore...
That has made me slowly start letting another type of thoughts and feelings enter my heart. The Ruthann that everyone that have fallen in loved with. She is broken and is slowly disappearing. A new woman is trying to form but I am fighting against it!
I am fighting her because I am scared of what the new me will become but maybe it time to let her out.
You are the Queen.. remember... it time for me to be her!
She has been broken thanks to a man. A man she still wants to get back at for EVERYTHING he has done. The darkness that I have tried to fight against for so long. It starting to come back into my heart.
No, it not because of the fact who my husband is! It has to do with me. It has to do with things I need to realize and face. It has to do with the fact just maybe been the nice guy isn't who I am. I have been slowly just confusing myself for many years.
You are worthless....
Give me a reason why I shouldn't just follow the light into the darkness. GIVE ME A REASON! You can't give me a reason because every since the beat down from Luke.
Luke have awakened something that I have buried so deep. So deep inside of me that is screaming to come out. It will be coming out.
When?
You just have to wait and see.
Just know it not the end of Ruthless "fucking" Aggression. As of right now Luke is winning. I promise you he won't be winning for too long. I will stop him. I MUST!
You are nothing!
You are worthless!
Not only him but many around here because I am getting tired of been the joke of the company. I am tired of people sitting around laughing at me! I am tired of looking at me and seeing a weak woman! It just a shell of a who I truly am deep down.
I AM NOT WEAK!
I heard EVERYTHING everyone is saying about me. I hear everything trust me I do. I just let people talk for too long. I let it just build...
build....
build...
and now I am ready to let out EVERYTHING I am ready to take my hands and have blood spill. I need blood to be a spill. I need to have it.
I am craving for it.
Blood... life... is calling for you...
I NEED the taste of it in between my fingers tips.
I NEEEEEEDD IT!
I NEED IT!
I NEED IT!
There is no one that can stop me. No one!
My husband.
My son.
Myself
Those are the three top things that have my life become circle around. The things that have been clouding my mind and heart but there also have been many other things.
My career here in EWC. As I sit here I feel there are some more things I need to do but I feel people around here forgot about me? I feel people around here don't even see me as a threat anymore. That what has made me mad.
I have been invisible.....
I have become worthless....
No one needs me...
No one wants me....
No one care about me... anymore...
That has made me slowly start letting another type of thoughts and feelings enter my heart. The Ruthann that everyone that have fallen in loved with. She is broken and is slowly disappearing. A new woman is trying to form but I am fighting against it!
I am fighting her because I am scared of what the new me will become but maybe it time to let her out.
You are the Queen.. remember... it time for me to be her!
She has been broken thanks to a man. A man she still wants to get back at for EVERYTHING he has done. The darkness that I have tried to fight against for so long. It starting to come back into my heart.
No, it not because of the fact who my husband is! It has to do with me. It has to do with things I need to realize and face. It has to do with the fact just maybe been the nice guy isn't who I am. I have been slowly just confusing myself for many years.
You are worthless....
Give me a reason why I shouldn't just follow the light into the darkness. GIVE ME A REASON! You can't give me a reason because every since the beat down from Luke.
Luke have awakened something that I have buried so deep. So deep inside of me that is screaming to come out. It will be coming out.
When?
You just have to wait and see.
Just know it not the end of Ruthless "fucking" Aggression. As of right now Luke is winning. I promise you he won't be winning for too long. I will stop him. I MUST!
You are nothing!
You are worthless!
Not only him but many around here because I am getting tired of been the joke of the company. I am tired of people sitting around laughing at me! I am tired of looking at me and seeing a weak woman! It just a shell of a who I truly am deep down.
I AM NOT WEAK!
I heard EVERYTHING everyone is saying about me. I hear everything trust me I do. I just let people talk for too long. I let it just build...
build....
build...
and now I am ready to let out EVERYTHING I am ready to take my hands and have blood spill. I need blood to be a spill. I need to have it.
I am craving for it.
Blood... life... is calling for you...
I NEED the taste of it in between my fingers tips.
I NEEEEEEDD IT!
I NEED IT!
I NEED IT!
There is no one that can stop me. No one!
